So this morning church was so refreshing. And when I say refreshing, I mean splash your face with cold water and wash it clean refreshing feeling. Both the worship service and Sunday School. It usually is, however, this morning really touched on my soul because both services spoke to my heart on what I was dealing with in my quiet times this past week.
Brother Bill was back in Revelation. I love the book of Revelation. It has some awesome promises for us Christians in the end times. The end times ... this is what my heart was dealing with this week. As a Christian I should look forward to His glorious return. But I am a selfish human being. I want to be a momma. I want to have grandkids. I want to teach for years and years. So much of what is going on n today' world line up directly with what is profeized in the Bible. At anytime He can return. That does not scareme but it does make my heart skip a beat, or five. I am much more comfortable about it now. I know that I am not the only one who has those selfish thoughts. I know where I am going ... I know I get to see my Heavenly Father one day whether it is when I die or when He returns.
"Let not your heart be troubled; you believe in God, believe also in Me. In my Father's house are many mansions; if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and recieve you Myself." John 14:1-3
Sunday school was about forgiveness. Not just of others but of YOURSELF. The hardest person to give forgiveness to. No matter what it is, He has forgiven you if you have confessed it. He does not think twice about it. It is gone. Gone forever. Washed clean, white as snow. Vanished in outter space. Poof. I have been struggling for the last 5 years for a big sin that I was living with in college. I know I have been forgiven from my Lord, my husband and my family. But I can not forgive myself. When I have my quiet times I still cry about it to this day. Well I guess I should say yesterday. This morning was an eye opener on how you need to forgive yourself for your shortcomings. It is human nature to fall, to sin. Accept that, forgive yourself, pull up your britches and boot straps and go on. Guard your heart with the good Word and prepare yourself to go out in the crazy world.
"Blessed is he whose transgressions are forgiven, whose sins are covered." Psalm 32:1
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Hey Lauren, I've also dealt with the baggage of dark, past sins. Satan does a great job of bringing those to our mind at the most terrible times. He loves when we mourn over our past failures. But what is the most amazing thing to me, is that when I look back over my life, instead of hurting over how I screwed up so badly, I can now rejoice in the absolute proof of our God. What I made trash, he turned into beautiful treasure! How else could I be so blessed today if His promises weren't true? So, during those times when the devil starts to remind you of your sins, remind him of how redemptive our Lord is! Look at where you are now, what you believe now. Who else can do that but our Lord? If you ever want details on my history, all you gotta do is ask. It's hideous, but I can talk about it now with a light and thankful heart! Many hugs!!
Crystal
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